Scribblings

Some friendships can be explained only with the lyrics of this song…….

Yaariyan (Cocktail 2012)

Alvida yaara alvida
Ho rahe tumse hum judaa
Le chale saare gham tere
Khush rahe yaara tu sadaa

Tumse bhi zyada hongi
Ab yaadein pyaariyan
Hum dono ki hain apni apni lachariyaan
Ab hanste hanste tumpe le khushiyaan vaariyaan

Marz bhi hain deti
Chain bhi hain deti
Dard bhi hain deti
Jaan bhi hain leti
Yaariyaan Woh o..
Na chhode yaariyaan
Woh oh oh…

Ab jeene ko jaane ko, na koi raasta
Tanhaaiyon se hoga, ab dil ka vaasta
Hum khud hi khud ko, ab to kar denge laapata

Maan le tu aise
Hain zara bhole se
Jaante hain waise
Hai nibhaani kaise
Yaariyan
woh oh ho
Naa chhode yaariyaan
Woh oh ho..

Yaari yaari har koi karda ve
Yaari yaari har koi har koi
Karda ve.. karda ve… karda
Yaari de bus jo peh jaave
Woh pagla woh jhalla ve

Ab jeene ko jaane ko na koi raasta
Tanhaiyon se hoga ab dil ka vaasta
Hum khud hi khud ko ab to kardenge laapata

Maan le tu aise
Hai zara bhole se
Jaante hain waise
Hai nibhaani kaise
Yaariyaan
Oh oh ho

Na chhode yaariyan
Woh oh ho..

Sad but true. Sigh! :S

Lately I have been coming across this phrase ‘Moving On…’ a lot too often. Be it in terms of a job change or the more common reference of relationships. A job change of course isn’t the hot topic of discussion today. Yes, the focus is on moving on in relationships.

How easy is it to “move on?” Does it really happen that one CAN actually put everything in the past and go ahead into something new with ease? Seeing people around me, I can say, well not really that easy. Moving on or in other words separating and starting afresh wouldn’t be a cake walk I presume. If someone asks me on the possibility, I don’t think the phrase and phase would be anything but easy. Emotional involvement with anyone is an exchange of not only moments or times spent together but much more than that. It is more so an exchange of personalities, thought process, energies and much beyond which words shall always fail to explain. A part of both the individuals is exchanged, the separation ends up leaving a void, which in most cases takes a very long time to fill. At times an eternity.

To summarize moving on is a slow process and doesn’t really happen in it’s entirety. Those who have ever been involved in a relationship would know this better, how ever many years may pass by, but there are times when you do tend to remember the past. It could be just memories flashing by or a chance meeting at a social do with your ex. There are moments that do tend to flash by, if not stay permanently (for numerous reasons).

I have always felt like a winner…at least till sometime ago. Lately there’s something not right….actually a whole lot of things which are not right or something that is going fine ending completely wrong. Somewhere I had read my horoscope which stated that if July was bad then August will seem like it’s crashing down. Don’t know how true it turns out to be (I hope it doesn’t any further) but then it is as if I the peace escapes just like sand does from one’s fist. I try hard to grab it…to make sure it stays. Yet it keeps slipping out of my hands. However, hard I try.

Have you ever had the feeling of being suffocated? Or felt that you are trapped in that box with a lock with no place to escape. Giving no room to breathe or any outlet to escape. Suffocated I am feeling. I have so much inside me yet nothing to share.

I feel like crying out loud, scream like crazy….yet nothing comes out. Why is everything so stiffled? Whom to blame? God? Destiny? or Me?

It’s as if the dreams I had made are being washed away by the waves…just like the wordings of the song below mention:

Khoyi khoyi si hoon main
Kyun yeh dil ka haal hai
Dhundli saari khwaab hai
Ulja har khayaal hai
Saari kaliyan murja gayi
Rang unke yaadon mein beh gaye
Saare gharaande reet ke
Lehrein aayi, lehron mein beh gayi

Raah mein kal kitni chirag the
Saamne kal phoolon ki bhaag thi
Iss se kahun kaun hai jo sune
Kaante hi kyun maine hai chune
Sapne mere kyun hai kho gaye
Jaage hai kyun dil mein gumm mere
Saare kaliyan murja gayi
Rang unke yaadon mein beh gaye
Saare gharaande reet ke
Lehrein aayi, lehron mein beh gayi

Na na na ..

Kya kahun kyun yeh dil udaas hai
Ab koi door hai na paas hai
Choo le jo dil woh baatein ab kahan
Woh din kahan raatein ab kahan
Jo bhi dhakhal hai ab khawab sa
Ab dil mera hai betaab sa
Saari kaliyan murja gayi
Rang unke yaadon mein beh gaye
Saare gharaande reet ke
Lehrein aayi, lehron mein beh gayi, beh gaye…

And Life continues….