Off late my posts (whatever limited number) seem to be more of questions. Questions some of which are those which have been asked by others with other  and a major chunk of them mushrooming in my head…as if they had taken human form and were taking a stroll through my mind if it were a free-for-all jogging area.

Questions range from work, friendship, life, relationships, general things around etc. With the assortment, I might as well compile a collection of questions or prepare a question bank…but alas for the solutions.

With the passing of time I have noticed a change in these questions. I guess this is what they call “getting matured” Usually a lot of these questions have evolved to be path leaders but some of them (unfortunately the crucial ones) have left me flabbergasted. Maybe I am unable to take cue the solutions these questions are pointing towards, but whatever said and done I am STUCK!

I need to break away or break free from this bondage. Bondage of my weakness of being unable to make a decision. A decision which is important, important enough to bring about a change in me, yet I am unable to muster the strength to take it.

What do I do????

Why me?

Another year gone by…and yet another year of blogging….time surely has flown by….2004—blogging. 2005–things happened—work—blogging continued—The Bloggeratti. 2006—work continued—craziness continued and so did blogging. 2007 and 2008 were no different—work work and more work—-blogging continued with a shift to my own domain…and this place.

Of course the predominant part of my life i.e.  work, surely did take its toll on blogging with a somewhat sabbatical happening in between….but I couldn’t stay far from the blog world.

This is like any other day when one celebrates their birthday….and so here is this post for celebrating the birthday of my space in blogville…..HAPPY 5th BIRTHDAY SCRIBBLINGS!!!

A day when you feel all that you do is everything but right.

A day when you seem to have derailed…but however hard you are trying to get back the track seems to just evade your path.

A day when you try & do everything that you can to keep everyone happy…backfires bigtime and ends up hurting people close to you.

A day when however hard you try to smile…the curve that sets everything straight refuses to appear.

A day which seems it would never end…and guess what…it DOESN’T!!!!

The jinxed day continues it’s Tsunamic (is there a word like that?!?!?) effect……:(

Some friends stand by you when you are happy, some friends stand by you when you are sad. But there are some friends who stand by you forever through thick and thin…and one such friend is Mayank. Even though he claims I take his case most of the time, it is ALWAYS the other way around.

Talking about his qualities would mean this post would never end. And the narcissist that he is he does enough of self-praising to give a chance to others, but to summarize-a small gift from me to you (Boy will he gloat after reading this, especially when it comes from me)….

Mayank

You ROCK & Are THE BEST!

The sweetest, caring, crazy, loony, lazy, nakhre-baaz (I couldn’t have missed these 2 out) and the most amazing friend one can ever ask for.

Stay the same forever (you can cut down on the laziness though) and may you always get the best in life.

Here’s

wishing

you

a

VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

See one of my favorite Spring flowers here

What happens when I can’t sleep….to start off..it leads to a post being published here!

Strangely, the days I feel like just crashing and waking up only when I am re-energized, I tend to have a tough

time falling asleep….sounds crazy…it does to me as well.

Now I would ideally think of coming down to ways to relax and put myself off to sleep. But only if they worked.

Most of the tried and tested measures have failed as I write this post, don’t believe me?..a glass of warm milk apart from it being tasty and filling (post-midnight snack-if you can call it that) it didn’t do much wonders to get the sleeping activity happening in my head.

Deep breathing-it did work sometimes but not today. Sigh!

My favorite- listening to music while dozing off….nah!..this too failed.

Reading-nope didn’t work as well as I had planned…(my patience seems to be running out now)

Have even tried counting sheep, stars, clouds, whatever I could imagine counting up to infinite numbers (now did

that make any sense?)

It’s been sometime since I am just lying around, staring into the dark, somewhere deep down realizing the reason.

Making the right decision regarding the reason is something that’s in process, or is made already…but I don’t want to think about it tonight or for sometime…i want to….simply….let it go and just be!

Amongst the many annual rituals we all have in our lives and families, one which has been there  in mine is that of visiting the Rashtrapati Bhawan on Republic Day to see the illuminated building in awe. A colleague of mine from Bangalore stated that you Delhi people have to see so much here, well literally yes, we not only get to see the amazing monuments of this place, but also live the and be an active or rather stationary (of course stuck in traffic) part of the numerous practices and dress rehearsals leading to the big day on 26th January.

Managed to get a few snapshots after long..check them out here.

What is the best way to deal with an instance or situation which you know could be right for someone else, but not for your ownself. An action, which would provide a solution (maybe?) but then would leave a mark—forever, positive or negative—dont know.

Ethically one should avoid hurting anyone, but what if not hurting someone else leads to giving pain to ourselves?

What should one actually do in such a situation, go ahead and lead to burden the life of another person or bear the pain forever?

Decisions…decisions…they define what course we take and move ahead in life. They surely are a risky proposition if you see. One wrong decision and life can be pretty miserable but then a right decision takes you a long way.

Decisions we make which define our destiny…if your decision didn’t work out the way you wanted them to, in that case it just wasn’t meant to be, but if you enjoyed the journey after taking that decision…have no regrets, just recall all the fun you had-after all you had thought of it to be good thats why you chose it right? Sometimes you know things aren’t meant to be….in that case treading on it wasn’t the best decision in that case.

Things working out or not is destiny,,,but the decision is ours to enjoy it by remembering the fun you had or regret it.

Off the record-It feels strange at times…when things are going in your mind and something coincides to just reconfirm what you were thinking or trying to find an answer to. Got the following quote as an sms: “More than anything else, I believe its our decisions, not the condition of our lives, that determine our destiny”-Anthony Robbins

Don’t know if this post makes any sense….just a ramble.