Scribblings

Lately I have been coming across this phrase ‘Moving On…’ a lot too often. Be it in terms of a job change or the more common reference of relationships. A job change of course isn’t the hot topic of discussion today. Yes, the focus is on moving on in relationships.

How easy is it to “move on?” Does it really happen that one CAN actually put everything in the past and go ahead into something new with ease? Seeing people around me, I can say, well not really that easy. Moving on or in other words separating and starting afresh wouldn’t be a cake walk I presume. If someone asks me on the possibility, I don’t think the phrase and phase would be anything but easy. Emotional involvement with anyone is an exchange of not only moments or times spent together but much more than that. It is more so an exchange of personalities, thought process, energies and much beyond which words shall always fail to explain. A part of both the individuals is exchanged, the separation ends up leaving a void, which in most cases takes a very long time to fill. At times an eternity.

To summarize moving on is a slow process and doesn’t really happen in it’s entirety. Those who have ever been involved in a relationship would know this better, how ever many years may pass by, but there are times when you do tend to remember the past. It could be just memories flashing by or a chance meeting at a social do with your ex. There are moments that do tend to flash by, if not stay permanently (for numerous reasons).

I have always felt like a winner…at least till sometime ago. Lately there’s something not right….actually a whole lot of things which are not right or something that is going fine ending completely wrong. Somewhere I had read my horoscope which stated that if July was bad then August will seem like it’s crashing down. Don’t know how true it turns out to be (I hope it doesn’t any further) but then it is as if I the peace escapes just like sand does from one’s fist. I try hard to grab it…to make sure it stays. Yet it keeps slipping out of my hands. However, hard I try.

Have you ever had the feeling of being suffocated? Or felt that you are trapped in that box with a lock with no place to escape. Giving no room to breathe or any outlet to escape. Suffocated I am feeling. I have so much inside me yet nothing to share.

I feel like crying out loud, scream like crazy….yet nothing comes out. Why is everything so stiffled? Whom to blame? God? Destiny? or Me?

It’s as if the dreams I had made are being washed away by the waves…just like the wordings of the song below mention:

Khoyi khoyi si hoon main
Kyun yeh dil ka haal hai
Dhundli saari khwaab hai
Ulja har khayaal hai
Saari kaliyan murja gayi
Rang unke yaadon mein beh gaye
Saare gharaande reet ke
Lehrein aayi, lehron mein beh gayi

Raah mein kal kitni chirag the
Saamne kal phoolon ki bhaag thi
Iss se kahun kaun hai jo sune
Kaante hi kyun maine hai chune
Sapne mere kyun hai kho gaye
Jaage hai kyun dil mein gumm mere
Saare kaliyan murja gayi
Rang unke yaadon mein beh gaye
Saare gharaande reet ke
Lehrein aayi, lehron mein beh gayi

Na na na ..

Kya kahun kyun yeh dil udaas hai
Ab koi door hai na paas hai
Choo le jo dil woh baatein ab kahan
Woh din kahan raatein ab kahan
Jo bhi dhakhal hai ab khawab sa
Ab dil mera hai betaab sa
Saari kaliyan murja gayi
Rang unke yaadon mein beh gaye
Saare gharaande reet ke
Lehrein aayi, lehron mein beh gayi, beh gaye…

And Life continues….

With each passing year a new number is added. With each passing year situations/instances may change, but the emotions remain unchanged. With each passing year the words are more or less the same. With each passing year I add another number and write a post here….to wish my space A HAPPY BIRTHDAY SCRIBBLINGS!!!!

It’s been 6 years and though I come by at intervals sometime long sometime short and sometimes extended breaks, yet my bonding with this space keeps growing stronger. Each year there are a series of posts relating to various moods, moments, situations, phases and people of my life documented for eternity (or at least till this website keeps functioning ) This time too I hope I keep this place more active! And now I enjoy taking the slice of cake and eating it…yummm!

Till next time..take care and keep smiling!

Changes and only changes…that is what life is all about. Good or bad is testified by time. The moments at time make you happy and then there are times when they leave us sad. Change is the only constant and the ball keeps rolling with every roll creating a new mark and leaving an imprint in our life. Imprints which form a collage in our brain and keep flashing now and then making us smile and at the same time leave a few tears in our eyes. I am not sad neither am very happy. I just have confused and mixed emotions. Life has various ways to test you and will power, guess this is one such way…..of flashing memories, of moments of fun, of smiles and of joy.  Of locations, of places you have been while enjoying those times. Times when it all seemed to be perfect. Guess it was too good to be true and last always. Though I wouldn’t mind freezing the moment in time and stay there forever. The wordings of the song are true…All Good Things Come To An End. Sad yet true!

On a confused note I end this post while listening to the following song:

Hum, rahen ya na rahen kal
Kal yaad aayenge ke ye pal
Pal, ye hain pyar ke pal
Chal, aa mere sang chal
Chal, soche kya
Chhoti si, hai zindagi
Kal, mil jaaye to hogi khush-naseebi

Hum rahen ya na rahen yaad aayenge ye pal
Hum rahen ya na rahen yaad aayenge ye pal

Till next time take care and keep smiling…:)

A sound brought to the ear drums can cause a flurry of activity….it can cause a few muscles to exercise and stretch into something and spread the infectious effect onto others. Crazy as it may sound, a few words and now am all smiles and passing it onto everyone in sight.

It’s been long since I have smiled the beaming smile that comes from deep within. Am smiling and happy for a very very dear friend.

…..till next time Take Care & Keep Smiling Always!!!!

This is one full moon night which would be difficult to forget…a special moment captured and lost at the same time. Check it out here.