Off late my posts (whatever limited number) seem to be more of questions. Questions some of which are those which have been asked by others with other  and a major chunk of them mushrooming in my head…as if they had taken human form and were taking a stroll through my mind if it were a free-for-all jogging area.

Questions range from work, friendship, life, relationships, general things around etc. With the assortment, I might as well compile a collection of questions or prepare a question bank…but alas for the solutions.

With the passing of time I have noticed a change in these questions. I guess this is what they call “getting matured” Usually a lot of these questions have evolved to be path leaders but some of them (unfortunately the crucial ones) have left me flabbergasted. Maybe I am unable to take cue the solutions these questions are pointing towards, but whatever said and done I am STUCK!

I need to break away or break free from this bondage. Bondage of my weakness of being unable to make a decision. A decision which is important, important enough to bring about a change in me, yet I am unable to muster the strength to take it.

What do I do????

Why me?

A day when you feel all that you do is everything but right.

A day when you seem to have derailed…but however hard you are trying to get back the track seems to just evade your path.

A day when you try & do everything that you can to keep everyone happy…backfires bigtime and ends up hurting people close to you.

A day when however hard you try to smile…the curve that sets everything straight refuses to appear.

A day which seems it would never end…and guess what…it DOESN’T!!!!

The jinxed day continues it’s Tsunamic (is there a word like that?!?!?) effect……:(

See one of my favorite Spring flowers here

What happens when I can’t sleep….to start off..it leads to a post being published here!

Strangely, the days I feel like just crashing and waking up only when I am re-energized, I tend to have a tough

time falling asleep….sounds crazy…it does to me as well.

Now I would ideally think of coming down to ways to relax and put myself off to sleep. But only if they worked.

Most of the tried and tested measures have failed as I write this post, don’t believe me?..a glass of warm milk apart from it being tasty and filling (post-midnight snack-if you can call it that) it didn’t do much wonders to get the sleeping activity happening in my head.

Deep breathing-it did work sometimes but not today. Sigh!

My favorite- listening to music while dozing off….nah!..this too failed.

Reading-nope didn’t work as well as I had planned…(my patience seems to be running out now)

Have even tried counting sheep, stars, clouds, whatever I could imagine counting up to infinite numbers (now did

that make any sense?)

It’s been sometime since I am just lying around, staring into the dark, somewhere deep down realizing the reason.

Making the right decision regarding the reason is something that’s in process, or is made already…but I don’t want to think about it tonight or for sometime…i want to….simply….let it go and just be!

What is the best way to deal with an instance or situation which you know could be right for someone else, but not for your ownself. An action, which would provide a solution (maybe?) but then would leave a mark—forever, positive or negative—dont know.

Ethically one should avoid hurting anyone, but what if not hurting someone else leads to giving pain to ourselves?

What should one actually do in such a situation, go ahead and lead to burden the life of another person or bear the pain forever?

Decisions…decisions…they define what course we take and move ahead in life. They surely are a risky proposition if you see. One wrong decision and life can be pretty miserable but then a right decision takes you a long way.

Decisions we make which define our destiny…if your decision didn’t work out the way you wanted them to, in that case it just wasn’t meant to be, but if you enjoyed the journey after taking that decision…have no regrets, just recall all the fun you had-after all you had thought of it to be good thats why you chose it right? Sometimes you know things aren’t meant to be….in that case treading on it wasn’t the best decision in that case.

Things working out or not is destiny,,,but the decision is ours to enjoy it by remembering the fun you had or regret it.

Off the record-It feels strange at times…when things are going in your mind and something coincides to just reconfirm what you were thinking or trying to find an answer to. Got the following quote as an sms: “More than anything else, I believe its our decisions, not the condition of our lives, that determine our destiny”-Anthony Robbins

Don’t know if this post makes any sense….just a ramble.

I come and go…but the important bit is that I do come back again..right? Well firstly a very Happy New Year to those who would be reading this (don’t know if there actually are any readers left)

Ummm…the first few posts seem to always put me in a tizzy on what to write…well to start off the year seems to have started off on a somewhat good note (I hope it continues to be good for me and some good things actually do happen this year–fingers crossed)

I am not going to reminiscence on things that happened last year…not great enough to remember and I’d prefer to atleast in this case let bygones be bygones.

The start was great…spent the first day of the year with a close friend…was good fun especially when you are catching up after months…and as the saying goes..what you do the first day of the year continues for the rest of the year..I hope I can enjoy as much the whole year around with family and friends.

To end the first post of this year….Happy New Year…and this year’s resolution…just to be a bit more regular here and not go missing.

Seeya all around…till next time..take care and keep smiling